24 November 2008


Last night at 3:30 am I finally dissolved into tears. Amelia has never been a great sleeper. She goes through cycles of repeated night awakenings, followed by weeks of solid night sleeping. Some nights she will wake up as often as 10 times others none at all. I found myself guzzling Coke Zero and Diet Coke to keep awake. Ever since we returned home from Jordan she decided napping is not for her. For the first week I let her cry for 2 hours in her crib. The second week I took naps with her in our bed. The third week she decided that sleeping in her bed at all was not for her and naps only if mom physically held her.

I am TIRED. Amelia needs to nap. I need mommy time. I've run out of ideas on how to teach my little girl how to sleep. We've tried everything from schedules, to crying it out, to complete surrender (sleeping with us). Nothing is working. Gosh, my eyes are tearing up as we speak with frustration. She is so crabby now it is very difficult to make it through the day. Partly, she is sick (but the meds should be working); partly we may not try one system long enough; partly I am human. I hate to hear her scream: "Mommy I want you" at any time of the day. We've let her "scream it out" for a month of Sundays, it works until something else comes along. I would never pray a sleep-whacked child on anyone. Whenever I think about the prospect of adding more kids to the mix I shudder. That makes me feel even worse! Of course we want more kids, but my body screams for some rest first. What a predicament!

Playing with Sarah and Bridger

This morning Amelia and I drove down to Lehi to drop off a photography CD to the family from last week's session. We orchestrated a drop-off at the Maverick off I-15 near Thanksgiving Point. Then we drove to Sarah's home to visit with her for the morning. Sarah showed me some of the wicked cute outfits she's collected for little Kenna, who will be born in about a month. I was so excited to give her a fun onesie and hat. Sarah LOVES bright colors so I tried to find some fun fabric and yarn to make a cute little outfit. Bridger and Amelia were having a hard time sharing and playing together. Bridger is 3 and loves things to be a certain way...so does Amelia! It was almost humorous. Amelia conked her head just as we headed out the door to shop at Target and grab some lunch. She wailed and cried for the 30 minutes it took us to get to Daybreak. I even had to stop off on the side of the road because Amelia started to gag she was crying so hard. A kind gentleman stopped his car to make sure we were okay, saying he was an EMT from Camp Williams. I calmed her down a bit and stuck her back in the car seat and resumed our drive. She resumed crying with gusto. I was crying by the time we got to our destination. She brightened up a bit during lunch at Chic-fil-a. I guess she got whatever angst she had out of her little system because she was pretty happy during a short trip to Target. I was delighted to find a green puffy coat like the one I have for her! I love shopping with Sarah. We could not put down all the cute GIRLY clothes for babies. If I had a million dollars! A lady completely fainted in front of us at the check out line. Everyone was pretty panicked to get her back on her feet. I felt like fainting too, but from exhaustion. Amelia napped most of the way home. Little booger...naps are necessary for little 18-month old bodies.

This evening we had fun playing with Lego's. She is interested in making towers now and watching them fall. Justin and I conducted a FHE on the Word of Wisdom, somehow incorporating the topic of managing our health care benefits. It is that time of year to determine how much goes in a cafeteria plan, what health plan to choose, and what benefits to continue. It worked somehow! Our activity was dancing in the kitchen and eating more yummy cookies. Amelia fell into bed asleep before her head hit the pillow.

Makin' Cookies

Yesterday evening Amelia and I set out to make the best chocolate chip cookies ever. Jana made them a couple weeks ago and I've craved them ever since. Funny thing, since I customarily dislike chocolate cookies of any type. Weird, I know! The cookies taste like soft gooey boutique cookies. Yum. Once I had all the cookies on the sheet to cook, Amelia snatched the one made for me (sans chocolate, only butterscotch chips) and munched half of it before I noticed. Little cookie thief. She really enjoyed sucking the beaters and helping me mix the dough.

Here is the recipe:

The New Best Recipe (America Test Kitchen)

Chewy Chocolate Chip Cookies

2 Cups plus 2 TBS of Flour
½ Tsp baking soda
½ Tsp salt
12 Tbs unsalted butter, melted and cooled until just warm
1 Cup packed brown sugar
½ Cup white sugar
1 Large egg plus 1 large egg yolk
2 Tsp vanilla extract
1-1½ Cups of semisweet chocolate chips

1. Adjust oven rack to middle and heat oven to 325 degrees, line baking trays with parchment paper (or spray with nonstick spray)
2. Mix flour, baking soda, and salt in a separate bowl
3. Mix warm butter and sugars until blended, beat in egg, yolk, and vanilla until combined. Add dry ingredients and beat at low speed until just incorporated. Stir in chips to taste.
4. Roll a scant ¼ cup of dough in ball, divide ball in half and recombine the smooth edges leaving the outer side of the dough ball rough (this was totally unnecessary, but I did it).
5. Bake 15-18 minutes, rotating trays half way through baking.